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Smashing Pumpkins Wont Make Any More Records ... Unless They Will - Stereogum

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 12:56:50 -0700

They will still keep selling records. Billy Corgan already made the statement on Ethel that the band was committed to staying together because fans felt disappointed that there was an end to the band at one point.
If you like the Pumpkins then you bought the album. It's never going to be like "Gish" or "Siamese Dream" because music has changed, fans have changed and the band has changed. People said they were disappointed with "Mellon Collie" because it wasn't another "Siamese Dream" yet the album has some of their best songs on there to date.
I heard a lot of criticism about the Pumpkins since I first heard them but I'm still into them. If anything, "Zeitgeist" renewed my love for Corgan. A lot of the new songs are damn good and I give Corgan and Chamberlain credit for sticking with this despite any bad criticism.
But it's all for good and as long as they stick around and promise more albums and more concerts in the future, we're all fine with that.

DELOR.ES.DEFACTO & You're not hopeless or helpless

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 12:43:08 -0800

You're not hopeless or helpless

Well it's about time I updated around here. There's a new version of Wordpress that I have yet to install (even though the numbers "3.3" are very intriguing.)

I just haven't felt like posting in here for a while. It seems these posts are getting done weekly but I've overstepped that mark. I was going to post something for Valentine's Day but the weekend showed up with some things to do, making me totally wiped out, so on our President's Day, I'm able to feel like it's sort of a weekday and sort of a good day to list my personal info as of late.

On Valentine's Day, I went to dinner with my parents (which isn't so tragic seeing as that chick from Heroes did the same thing and didn't go on a date with that hot guy from the Fergie video instead.) I went shopping for something to wear for the next day (an interview) and picked up a $5 skirt, a $15 sweater and a $12 pair of shoes. Not bad. I washed a bunch of my black clothes as well, just in case I wasn't happy with my first choice in outfits (which is generally the case.) I watched Lost by myself because Fran was at choir practice. I had predicted that Sayid was one of the "Oceanic Six" and won that bet last Thursday. Now we'll see if my prediction that Jin will be the one to die this season, leaving the "Six" to be: Jack, Kate, Hurley, Sayid, Saywer and Locke.

On Friday morning I went on an interview for a little office assistant's job. (I decided on my Sketcher's instead of the new shoes. I just can't do heels anymore unless absolutely necessary.) The interview was for the library computer databases for the public school, housed at the university. Something I could totally do but Lord knows if this will pan out. They called and left a message before I got home about one of my references (so maybe that's a good thing). I left a message back, explaining that she was my assistant principal at my old school and left the number. Now, we'll see what she has to say I guess. If they call me either way, I'll ask about it. I'm dying of curiosity. I would just love to know if that Gossip Girl theme is still running rampant over there or if they've finally gotten sick of picking on me like I'm a 14 year old band geek. Sigh... I wonder how long that past will plague me.

After my interview I went to Barnes & Noble finally and spent a long time decided what to get with my Valentine's cash (since I'm on a diet now, this is what I asked for over chocolate.) After picking up and putting back, I finally settled on $40 worth of books and a Vogue magazine. (It has Kate Bosworth on the cover. I bought it to encourage my calorie counting and desire to be pretty enough to score Orlando Bloom. Just something to fret myself over until I have other things to thing about. Right now, that's all I have, which is annoying, because now I'm getting more in the mindset of, "average girls like me shouldn't even bother trying to be pretty...it'll never turn out this well." Sigh...)

After my book shopping trip, I decided to stop at Target to look, specifically, for notebooks. I've resolved my obsession to a specific element: one subject, wide ruled. They're simple and cheap and I can mess them up all I want without feeling some guilt for ruining those pretty $30 leather bound journals that I kept trying to use. Yes, I'm sure this is some weird personality defect but it works for me so I go with it. Now I have a single objective in every stationary section of each store. But of course, my being hyper-focus got shattered when this man my father's age decided to chat with me about his notebook preference. Now, being raised to be courteous and empathetic and to take into account that he probably just wanted someone to talk to and, I, like my mother, in that round-faced, friendly demeanor, got pick out to be the one this guy decided to talk to. So there I was, trying to be polite, in my new $5 English tweed skirt and black sweater, looking at the Pirates of the Caribbean notebooks, this guy told me all about how he likes to use the plain notebooks with the perforated edges so he can write out all of his bill payments, rip the page out, put it in his pocket, and then go to the bank. After a while, I tried to not making direct eye contact routine and utter the "uh-huh"s every so often so he'd get the idea that this was his time to get what he needed, stop talking to me and, more importantly, get out of my way because he was standing there in front of the notebooks with his cart. He did not get the idea. (Why is it that when you try to ignore someone, it gives them a sign to keep bugging you instead of getting the picture that being cordial and being interested are two separate entities. Ah Morrissey, you were so right; "The more you ignore me, the closer I get, you're wasting your time.") After a few minutes of his prattling on, a woman, his wife apparently, disabled with an electronic scooter and oxygen mask, comes in the aisle and

Wordpress Structure Theme | Blog About Your Blog

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 08:57:04 -0800

There are some features that definitely should be mentioned.

A custom home page to look like a news or magazine site (optional normal blog layout for the home page)
Related Posts plugin support
Plugin support for Popularity Contest by Alex King
WordPress 2.3 tag-ready
Placeholders for ads. Good sizes for 125�125px ads (must have for new themes)
Widget-Ready sidebar (not designed for them, kinda aligns it weird, but nice to have)
From the sounds of it, this theme really needs pictures. I think any type of photo blog may work really well here.

DELOR.ES.DEFACTO & So worry not, all things are well

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 10:48:51 -0800

So worry not, all things are well

Ah, and so the panic begins. I have applied to some sort of job online every day for eons now and nothing other than spam and credit companies and telemarketers have passed through my email and voicemail messages. What the hell am I going to do? I guess I will have to apply at Publix this week because I have no money whatsoever, I think my unemployment compensation has run out, I just got my W-2 form so I can file my taxes and get $50 or something back, then I have to apply for financial aid again because I have five more classes, one starting today, that I cannot pay for before I get my degree done.

Incidentally, the two classes I'm taking now are suppose to be my last classes for the program but my advisor says that I still need electives and my grad classes from UCF won't transfer (and even if they did, it would only be one out of the three). But what the hell do they know? Last time I talked to them they said I couldn't get any more money from financial aid because they only give so much money to students each year even though the amount they gave me only covered a couple of classes.

Again, it's the constant beat down. I can't just live my life, the way I want to. There are a special set of us in the world who get turned down at every possibility. Maybe that's why they all turned to the life of a starving artist; there's nothing else to do but express their pain and rejection in the world. Lord knows having a real job isn't an option. Sigh...

At least my bills for this month are paid up. But the financial cul-de-sac keeps winding tighter. I can't pay my loans or my credit cards. I just don't have money to do it. It pisses me off too because all that money I paid before when I did have the money, even when I was using unemployment compensation funds to do it, was to make sure that I kept my credit in tact and didn't have late fees to be swallowed up in. Now all the money I put into it is erased and I'm way over my limits in late charges and I'll probably just have to file bankruptcy if I don't get a decent job this year.

Why is it that I can't get any work? I even apply to secretary jobs that offer $10 an hour and require only a high school diploma. I must have been blacklisted from all workplaces.

Now, the problem I have with money is all relative. I won't starve because my parents will make sure I'm fed but man does it come with a price. I'm berated, bitched at, accused of and made to pay some sort of toll for their love and support. It can never be simply out of love and kindness; I have to hear the list of all the things I'm doing wrong, be yelled at about how I am every negative thing a person can be, and when I fight back, I can never win. I will always be some helpless babe in my cul-de-sac. They have raised me to not fear being alone and helpless because they will always be there to support me but they also backlash that positive parenting strategy with the negative idea that I am a clueless child and I cannot do anything without their help. And so I'm sure that is my personality. I resent yet I retreat. I can't be anything more than the poor little middle class girl who had a working mother and father, a baby sitter, a decent school, a nice home and anything I could possibly want. But that doesn't always equal stability and happiness, now, does it?

What is it that the nurse tells Susanna Kaysen in Girl, Interrupted? "You are a lazy, self-indulgent, little girl, who is making herself crazy." I guess that's how the rest of the world sees me too. {shrug} But I guess there are lots of us running around. I mean most of our parents had to work so that we had what our parents didn't have. Now some of us are just spoiled and have never had to work hard or worry about being homeless before. The end result is that now we are so self absorbed that we don't want anyone or need anyone to fight our good fight. Being raised to be independent is great but being torn down when you need help isn't. But parents are people too; they don't sit outside of their families and see what's happening. They are as selfish as the rest of us. At least their children were raised to know better than to put their own family through the same kind of crap.

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DELOR.ES.DEFACTO & Will I take my rest, among the blessed

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 18:40:44 -0800

Will I take my rest, among the blessed

Heathcliff Andrew Ledger

(April 4, 1979 - January 22, 2008) was an Academy Award-nominated Australian actor. After appearing in television roles during the 1990s, Ledger developed a Hollywood career. He starred in both critical and financial successes, including The Patriot, Monster's Ball and Brokeback Mountain, and completed the role of The Joker in the forthcoming The Dark Knight. Ledger was found dead in a New York City apartment in the SoHo neighborhood on January 22, 2008.

I can't even stomach the word "was" to describe him. Things will defiantly not be the same now. So sad.

We love you, Heath. You will truly be missed.

Heath Ledger found dead in NYC at age 28

Actor Heath Ledger found dead in NY building

Heath Ledger @ IMDB

Heath Ledger @ Wikipedia

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Fri, 05 Oct 2007 10:33:09 -0700

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DELOR.ES.DEFACTO & Rock on gold dust woman

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 20:50:32 -0700

Dear Blog, what is there to tell?

I haven't written in a couple days because the notion just hasn't struck me. There's been nothing new or interesting or type worthy going on so I just haven't written any of it in post format. I suppose I can go on the list route again:

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Fri, 28 Sep 2007 07:32:53 -0700

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