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Mon, 26 Sep 2005 11:37:28 -0700

An OOP formula for resolving flamewars:

if ( we.grow_up )
{
we.resolve = "We can handle this offline not troubling everyone who reads this Internet web site."
}
else
{
we.resolve = "Can we at least stick to related topics?"
}

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Mon, 29 Aug 2005 18:01:50 -0700

I've gotten sicker. I needed a surgery, but I failed an EKG test. Now something is wrong with my heart. Mentally I have been detereorating, getting worser and worser.

I originally joined Internet forums as a way to seek out new friends and join in with new people and socialize. Over the years I have been attacked, called names, and worse just for being myself. I never meant to become a troll, or seek attention, or any of the other stuff I keep being accused of every day. It got so bad, that I had created alter-egos as a reaction. The stress from work from employers who did not understand my illnesses, as they continued to pour the stress and abuse on me made me even worse. They had no idea what they were doing to me, nor did the online people.

I have no idea how much longer I am going to live, if I can make it to yet another day it is a victory for me. I am very sorry for my actions and behavior in the past that upset people so much that they had to hate me for it.

At least I finished college with a 3.9 GPA, only Jesus made it possible for me to do so. The intelligence I had during college came from Jesus, not me. I can't seem to do anything right anymore, and all I seem to be able to do is upset people.

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Thu, 30 Jun 2005 21:23:48 -0700

My depression is getting the better of me. I am sorry for anyone I upset recently. I got a lot of things I am dealing with and a lot of demons I am facing. Things are not going well, and my health is starting to get worse.

I am not sure what to do. I refuse to get suicidal about it again. I refuse to become like I was before.

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Wed, 17 Nov 2004 13:20:56 -0800

"Turning schizoaffective disorder into a spectator sport." since Nov 5th 2004, according to Nunzio.

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Sat, 13 Nov 2004 14:03:56 -0800

Nope, I tried it before and broke the scissors on my thick skull. :)

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Thu, 11 Nov 2004 09:10:55 -0800

My thoughts and prayers go out to all Veterans alive and dead today. You fought for our country and died or risked your lives. I have friends in the military, some I worked with when I was a contractor for the US Army, you do the best you can.

Also thoughts and prayers for Yasser Arafat and his family. I am glad he gave up terrorism, now God/Allah can forgive him. Maybe we can work towards peace in the Middle-East now. It will be a lot of hard work, mending a lot of fences, building a lot of bridges, and getting different people to at least tolerate each other and live in the same land without trying to kill each other.

I died in a way, I am trying to make changes in my life, so the old Orion Blastar is dead, and a new one is taking his place. If you cannot understand that, then just think of me like being "Kenny" from "South Park", dying and then coming back to life with no explination how I came back.

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Mon, 08 Nov 2004 15:06:20 -0800

Let me ask you something. If events were out of your control. You are depressed and suicidal. You hear voices telling you to kill yourself. People tell you to kill yourself. You are tormented, harassed, abused, until you no longer could handle the stress. People you thought were your friends turned on you. Used your information against you. You feel like you are dead and in Hell. You have an urge to kill yourself. You are dealing with it on a subconscious level, and you have two options that you can see. Just two of them.

Option 1, kill yourself for real.

Option 2, do a Cyber-Death, be hated for your actions, but it sure beats a real death. Then use true friends and family members for support to talk you out of suicide, and cover you.

No disrespect meant for anyone, I was totally out of control of my head, my sincerest apologies. If faced with these two options, which one would you pick?

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Thu, 14 Oct 2004 18:46:03 -0700

Pssstttt, I created some new groups with my new found SU powers:

http://xormad.group.stumbleupon.com/

http://pirates.group.stumbleupon.com/

http://orion-blastar-fan-club.group.stumbleupon.com/

http://comic-books.group.stumbleupon.com/

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Sat, 09 Oct 2004 16:15:51 -0700

I get the usual email asking me to submit a new poem for a contest, because they liked my old poems. Rather than submit a new one, I'll type one here for the whole Internet to read:

"Hole in my soul"

Our government has apparently failed us.
There is no such thing as true justice.
MegaCorporations make polliticians into puppets.
As children, we learned concepts from muppets.

It does not matter who will be our next President.
Just be glad you still live and still are a resident.

I have been hurt and taken advantage of almost all my days.
Suffering has caused a big hole in my soul, yet nobody pays.

They crash planes into buildings and blow themselves up to bits.
Who can support such insanity, and allow them to have many hits?

I am an Anomaly, yet buy all rights I should not even be.
Yet I hold power in the afterlife and they won't be free.

All my suffering and the suffering of others will paid to them.
They will get a taste of what they deserve, over and over again.

Our system has failed, we are seen as an imperial empire.
Hypocrites ridicule our government, yet they start a fire.

Fire that burns and yet never quite can be extingished.
Megacorporatios have control and refuse to relinquish.

The moral of the story is to treat others kindly.
Fill in that hole in your soul, don't do it blindly.

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Thu, 07 Oct 2004 04:04:53 -0700

I had a weird dream, a nightmare if you will. Call it a wake up call from God. I don't know if I have been doing the right thing, while I thought it was the right thing, maybe there was something else I should have done instead.

I feel that I cannot do anything right.

I've had a bad couple of weeks, one thing after another. I am just now starting to freak out at what could possibly happen. I must make decisions and try my best to do the right thing.

One of the tools I have to keep me sane, is my sense of humor, but hardly anyone gets it. So if I posted something humorus and it offended anyone, I apologize.

I had a flashback to what may have happened to a friend of mine who killed himself, a graphic dream were I saw him with a hole in his head. I swear that is not going to happen to me, I want to live.