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Tue, 04 Aug 2009 17:01:12 -0700

THIS SIDE UP ! ! ! ! ! !

I'M Upside down and overwhelmed with packing up my life for this move. I won't be online until I get new service after my move.
Maybe you'll see me again around the first week of August?
Take care everyone,� K

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Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:23:17 -0700

Teresa

We met in a classroom.
She was older than me ... Hell, she was older than my mother.

Said she worked as an accompanist.
She used to be a concert pianist, even played Carnegie Hall at the age of eight.

Such a wild spirit!
Why that hand was perpetually raised that day was a mystery.
She'd always blurt out of turn anyway.
Loud and boisterous, her shocking voice could wake the dead.

She was a geyser of enthusiasm, with a passion to learn.

She reached out to me, no...more like crashed into me,
demanding my number and insisting I come to her place for pasta.

Upon arriving, I sensed the most magical energy in that house.
It was a vast expanse of glorious space!

A fireplace, a rug, a black Baby Grand and Teresa.

The sun filtered through, making just the perfect pattern
On the rug that I would marvel at.

She became the closest most non-judgmental person in my life.
Nurturing all my wounds;
The vortex left from my mother and the torn space from my father.
This tiny frail woman just under 5 feet, selflessly...
filled all the holes in my life with the richest love
any human could be blessed to receive.

She's gone now, and I will never forget what she did for me...Ever.

I still miss the smell of her house, the rug,
her hammering out Joplin with more vigor than the man himself.
I even miss the screech of her voice.

I miss you with immense pain Teresa.
Thank you for being in my life when you could.

~Antidotes

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Wed, 01 Jul 2009 21:14:30 -0700

Please click on the photo where it says "now" and sign
It will take you 30 seconds to make
a CHANGE. Thank you!

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Tue, 30 Jun 2009 13:35:57 -0700

Smooth and Pink

Am I deceased
Sufficating through this watercourse?

Nothing�
VOID
Numb

I cannot be scheduled for this life of decay

And like a barnyard rooster
Your proud-strutted exit
left me littered with debris

Left to collect the pieces behind you
You curbed me for Wednesday's pick up

Not yet ugly
She is s Smooth and Pink
Like the glassy inner curves of the Conch shell

Restless, I seek to please her . . .
What used to be my cold shell

Soothing
Rhythmic strokes
�She flitters
Like last night's powdery moth at my porch light

The once absent pulse is�
deliciously present and accounted for

A hundred sunsets have descended since you've left
�Yet miraculously
I have an unquenchable thirst for water
To rinse away your blame

I yearn for motion
Rhythm
Waves
The ebb and flow
And the need
for the briny taste of another
upon my lips

A passionate breath is found
And...No, there will be no death

Not here

Not ever

~ANTIDOTES

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Mon, 29 Jun 2009 21:31:38 -0700

A time while his inner struggles were somewhat managable.
A time when his soul was stable enough to radiate
his inner beauty to the outside for us to see.

Drawing found at: http://earlierbirdscenic.deviantart.com

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Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:40:04 -0700

So, I'm a hippie-chick flower child huh?
FYI- I'm actually not old enough to be.
By the way, who is older? you or me?
I affectionately "rest my case" monkey man.

But I will take that comment as the highest form of flattery.

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Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:25:42 -0700

Some FLOWER POWER :)

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Thu, 25 Jun 2009 23:49:29 -0700

Farrah Fawcett ~ February 2, 1947- June 25, 2009

Known as "ULTRA-BRITE GIRL",
Farrah began to be recognized by her dazzling smile that could melt an iceberg.
As Farrah approached her 30th birthday she became
the worlds #1 pin-up model with the all too familiar red one-piece bathing suit poster.
She moved on to do the Charley's Angels series
and married Lee Majors, The Six Million Dollar Man (no less).
A divorce later she became involved with Ryan O'Niel and they had son.
Recently, he and his father were arrested on drug charges.
The media had a field day with it.
The world accused Farrah
of being a drug addict herself after an embarrassing interview on Letterman.
In one interview, she admitted to feeling like a "freak" even as a child,
stating that neighborhood kids would just come up to her door to stare at her
but not ask her out to play.

Her gorgeous hair became synonymous with her.
Women and young girls would sit at the hair dresser's and ask for the "Farrah" cut.
They hoped that the cut would make them as beautiful as Farrah.� ��
No one could achieve the natural beauty that she possessed.

Yet the real beauty became clear to the public in her recent film
documenting her battle with cancer called A WING AND A PRAYER.
She lived an entire life of paparazzi's in her face and instead of letting the media have a circus with her battle with cancer she became public with it.
I recently stumbled across a man who wrote in his blog: "Why is Farrah so special?"
He couldn't understand why America or any other country would be interested in watching Farrah's battle. He demanded to know why we cared if she shaved her famous locks of hair revealing her bald head to the world.
What makes her so special he asked.

She is special because when she made that documentary she was alive.
Just alive enough to let the camera film her at her worst.
She was dying and she let us all in to see it. Her entire life was based on her outer beauty.
She let us in to watch her emaciated body fade and wither,
the same body that used to make men stop dead in their tracks
the body that made young boys worry about blindness
and the same body that made women green with envy.
She let us in to see her when she suffered, when she was terrified
and when she desperately searched for a miracle.
She didn't do it for pity but instead to show that it's ok to be scared and it's ok to be human.
Her message was to "Never give up no matter what the doctors say and empower yourself by seeking out alternative methods in addition to your current treatment ".

Her decision to share that message was seen by over 9 million viewers.
If she changed one person's life that is battling a life threatening disease, then I say:
What is so wrong with that ?
She was stunning inside and out.

Two globally recognized Pop Icons died today
and both claimed that they felt at times to be freaks.

....Both were human beings.

~ ANTIDOTES

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Thu, 25 Jun 2009 21:54:31 -0700

�Michael Jackson ~� August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

An exceedingly talented young man who suffered child abuse from his father
and nearly became an instant success above and beyond the talent of his brothers and sister
His fame broke up his family, alienating them from him.
In turn, he never grows up.
NEVER.
He continues to stay a little child with A TON OF BAGGAGE.
He is already a "freak" in that there is nothing normal about his life
just from the excessive fame alone.
He said in his early 20's that he was always convinced that he had
THE IMPOSTURE SYNDROME (feeling like a fake).

Then as time goes on, he does one stupid things after another;
Extravagant beyond imagination ie:
Purchasing the carcass of the Elephant Man,
building NEVER LAND RANCH,
making babies and naming them "Blanket"
pretending to be with Presley etc. etc.
Then over time, he remodels his face beyond recognition of anything similar to that of a human being.
And last but not least gets arrested more than once for playing around with little boys!
He never gets the proper help to repair his broken self.
He is on a one way ticket to self destruction.
And "we" (the public, myself inc.) take pot shots at all his freaky looks, actions and ways.

He ends up dying at 50 fucking years old?

I just feel that there is a lesson here.
Maybe, just maybe M.J. has chosen this painful and unfulfilled life prior to incarnation.

(Yes I believe in reincarnation, get over it..stay with me here). . .
Maybe his life is so hideously outrageous and successful/unsuccessful to show us in the end that
he is:� A human being.

He was so GIFTED.
Whether we like his music or not or whether he is from your era or your children's era ,
there is simply NO denying that when astronauts look down at our big blue planet,
they can easily look at it and say :
NEARLY EVERY SOUL ON THAT PLANET KNOWS OF MICHAEL JACKSON.
What does that say?
He has undeniably made his mark in his short life.

...and I just wonder...what can we learn from this?

~ ANTIDOTES

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Mon, 22 Jun 2009 19:27:03 -0700

From Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland